pieces of me.

byebye blogspot.

2010-08-04T01:28:00.002+08:00

vinibeanie.tumblr.com

MOVED.

do you.

2010-08-03T00:35:00.000+08:00

class.

2010-08-02T16:22:00.002+08:00

Class is a Fuckin' Bore.

I can't leave school till 7 or 8.

Damn you,assignments.

I hate you.

On a happier note,Long weekend ahead! Thank god,our nation celebrates her Birthday!

gone.

2010-07-31T17:25:00.001+08:00

You’ll never understand why I hurt so much because

you’re not the one who is crying, you’re not the one who is left behind, you’re not the one who loved too much,and

you’re not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone.

-nat's tumblr-

you

2010-07-29T21:26:00.004+08:00

It's not gonna matter anyway,whether i stay or i go,B'cos I'm gonna love you forever.

2010-07-28T03:12:00.001+08:00

ehcas.

2010-07-27T22:29:00.004+08:00

Eh cas.

Thanks for the Treat Short boy!

bitch grow up

2010-07-27T00:47:00.001+08:00

Some of us,just need to Grow up.

NEVER SAID.

2010-07-26T00:44:00.001+08:00

And you just kept walkin’ baby

I couldn’t have stopped you if I tried

I was such a fool to think it might have led

To something fulfilling baby

And had you been willing maybe

I wouldn’t have these thoughts runnin’ through my head.

You just said goodbye, you said goodbye

lifeeeee

2010-07-24T21:30:00.003+08:00

It has a been tough year for us all,sometimes i wonder if all that really happened so fast? One day we were all so happy in love,and the next day, we're all fighting and screaming at each other,but whatever that has happen has happened. Gone! It only made us stronger as a person.Over time we learned to accept Life's harsh changes.

I guess, everything happens for a reason.

And really,i don't know what i will do without you guys.I'm glad,we've always had each others back,through it all.

And cas,it's really good to see you genuinely happy these days.I'm glad You've managed to pull through that phase in your life.

Don't let the face fool you,he'd die without us! Ha!

natty.

2010-07-23T10:25:00.000+08:00

Even if the sky is falling down.

quote.

2010-07-20T22:12:00.001+08:00

Xx.

ffuck off.

2010-07-15T23:15:00.004+08:00

You know,you complain so much,it stresses me out,you give me shit allowance and you complain so much about it.Ive always kept cool,trying not to ask for much,but you shower your other child with shitloads of money and never complain.Im sick of it.I wanna stop living of you.

Get a fuckin job.

So you'd shut the hell up.

I need to calm down now.

Argh.

PILLS.

hunger

2010-07-14T22:43:00.003+08:00

Don't you just hate it,when you wait so long,for your food to arrive,and your obviously HUNGRY,but when the food finally arrives,its the FRIGGN' WRONG ORDER!

You just go to bed,with an empty stomach.

Goodnight.

The pills might help for tonight,No?

upset

2010-07-14T01:30:00.004+08:00

Sometimes,all you need is NONE.

This is me,Giving up.

I tried.

im still here ATB

2010-07-13T12:03:00.001+08:00

I know you still care

I know you follow me places only you and I would share

You know you're my love

you Know that I always cared

I may have been away without you

But my heart was always here

Never forget

I never left

Always there in the shadows

Hard to believe

Because you couldn't see

Always there when I mattered.

I'm still here.

Nat.

2010-07-12T23:08:00.004+08:00

The time of Our Lives.

you and i

2010-07-12T15:01:00.002+08:00

You and i are going to be okay.

You know that,Right?

my saturday.

2010-07-10T16:32:00.003+08:00

A very productive Saturday indeed.It would have, of course been better,if i had more sleep and wasn't suffering from a mild HANGOVER!

Anyways,i started my day off,with my IMH(institute of mental health) voluntary visit. I must say,i was scared shit-less by the patient's excitement to see us! Being in the room surrounded by these various males,was so surreal. Getting to know them,was a real eye opener,listening and engaging with them,has really been an experience to me.Even if they're all locked up,they're so happy in their own little worlds,and if you're lucky they will let you in. They have feelings just like us,and its difficult to leave once you've spent time with them. I'd def come again,special friends:)) esp,Mr kalai Rajah! One man,who has inspired me,to never give up on life. For him,i'd try.I hope he's family takes him home tho,he's an awesome person,i'd bring him home anytime.He's like a granddad i never had!

Right after that,i had signed up with the rainbow club to tutor kids,whom are either underprivileged or might not be as normal as the rest of us.I was looking forward to this the entire week,and it was really FUN! I tutored a lil girl named Apple,and she's so adorable and incredibly smart!I'm already looking forward to next weekend.I'm glad i have finally made my weekends more productive!Away from drama,away from thinking of the could haves or would haves!Its more Peaceful this way.More alone time,with people whom appreciate you.

rainbowww

2010-07-08T22:05:00.003+08:00

I've always wanted to social work with kids, it's been a long time dream.

After my Failed Cambodia trip,two years ago, I've finally found something to start of with.

Teaching tuition for free,to underprivileged kids! yipeeeeeeeeeeeeee:)))

Rainbow is a voluntary institute which helps such kids out,and i'm their latest Addition!

I'm pretty much excited to start this weekend.

Finally moving Forward.

The doctor on the other hand,says the reason i don't sleep at night,is caused by anxiety attacks.

Intense much.

Finally,SLEEPING PILLS.

Holding hands? really/?

2010-07-06T00:11:00.003+08:00

I remember every detail of That night.

It could have been anyone else,but not my own girl.

I was there.It hurt.I was disgusted.

I didn't have to see that,at least not from you.

Maybe you're done with me.

Say it to my face.

let go.

you you you

2010-07-05T21:18:00.003+08:00

I loved Jacob, much more than I should, and yet, still nowhere near enough. I was in love with him, but it was not enough to change anything; it was only enough to hurt us both more.

Ready for you,whenever you are.

xx.
Casti's Birthday was a Blast!
The afterparty chalet was ever better!
Happy 21st Nana:))

Forever<3

friends.

2010-07-01T00:17:00.004+08:00

Sometimes,the group of Friends you make,will last you a lifetime. I've had my share of unfaithful and Fucked ones,and at the end of the day,you realise that the ones who matter the most,are the ones who may not be there all the time,but will never fail to turn up for special events to share moments like these with you.B'cos a true friend,will know how much it means to have you there.Some of us,are just caught up in our own lives,that we fail to appreciate our friends,whether anot we're stressed,or busy, Friends are suppose to be there for each other,suck it up and be there to share moments which could mean the world to some of us.

Xx.

Stress

2010-06-29T23:48:00.002+08:00

Super Stressed with the Casti's Birthday coming up!
School starting so soon is'nt helping in Anywayy!
I've got the montage and the dance to finish by Friday!

HELP!

thailand.

2010-06-29T01:13:00.006+08:00

Sawadeeka,I LOVE THAILAND! I just got back from there,its an awesome place! Our Plan to travel together when we're 21 came true! Yeeeehaaa!

I had a blast.
oh,and today is our darling's 21st! Castilloo:)))
Happy 21st lover! We love you very much!It's been a tough year,but hey!it's all in the process of becoming 21 yes?
We'll have a blast this saturday at your partyy babyy!
Till then,you've 24hrs to enjoy till me and cassy,start killing you!

See you at allister's place,for the Brazil match,Shortyyy<3>

Xx.

impossible.

2010-06-18T19:35:00.001+08:00

Tell him,all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell Him, I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell him,what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible

casti is leaving!

2010-06-14T21:59:00.003+08:00

Castillo,is leaving to Serve the Damn nation next week!The worst of it all,is that it's one day before his 21st,which sucks! We can't see him on his birthday,let alone celebrate it:( It sucks man! I'm gonna miss this feller ahh! All the shit we do every weekend! Two weeks NO castillo,me and cassy are going to die of borderm! Aunty margy,is going to go into depression,thats for sure! She's super upset! Its gonna be so sad to see him Go:(

I'm gonna miss you casti<3

too late.

2010-06-14T15:22:00.003+08:00

But she’s crying while she’s saying this

Boy,I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you traveled so far boy I’m sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late.

I see myself here.

Against the wind I’m going home again
Wishing be back to the time when we were more than
Friends.

I see you here.

We should all,get up our fat asses,and go get the things we want.
Sitting there,wondering what could have been,brings you NOTHING.
Get up.
Fight.

Atleast you'd know,you tried.
Xx.

kl

2010-06-09T10:08:00.004+08:00

So i had a week gettaway to kl.Trust me i needed it.
Away from stress,Drama and clowns.

A good 1 week of Freedom,and De-stressing:)

and im hurt.

2010-05-29T14:52:00.001+08:00

Ask most people what they want out of life and the answer is simple - to be happy. Maybe it's this expectation though of wanting to be happy that just keeps us from ever getting there. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to state's of bliss, the more confused we get - to the point where we don't recognize ourselves. Instead we just keep smiling - trying to be the happy people we wish we were. Until it eventually hits us, it's been there all along. Not in our dreams or our hopes but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar.

It's a common belief that positive thinking leads to a happier healthier life. As children we are told to smile, be cheerful, and put on a happy face. As adults we are told to look on the bright side, to make lemonade, and see glasses as half full. Sometimes reality can get in the way of our ability to act the happy part though. You're hope can fail, boyfriends can cheat, friends can disappoint. It's in these moments, when you just want to get real, drop the act, and be your true scared unhappy self.

this is me.
Scared,terrified and unhappy
all i want to do is, LEAVE.

fucked up parentsx.

2010-05-28T21:22:00.002+08:00

The more you cage me in.
The more i will rebel.
I'm 21,treat me like one.

Fuckinhell'

somthing inside me died!

2010-05-25T12:30:00.003+08:00

Someone once said that death is not the greatest loss in life.

The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.

girls are dumb!

2010-05-24T13:14:00.004+08:00

It all just feels so fake, you know? This idea that good things happen to good people. That there's magic in the world, and that the meek and the righteous will inherit it. Too many good people suffer for that to be true. Too many prayers go unanswered. And every day it just gets worse. Every day we ignore how truly broken this world is, and we tell ourselves it's all going to be okay. But it's not going to be okay. And once you know that, there's no going back. There's no magic in the world.at least today there isn't.

Nobody can ever really,say i know how you feel.B'cos the sad truth is you don't. You never will.

I'm stuck between people,whom i love to death.

People whom only care for their well being,and people who just want to run away from reality.

And I'm sick,and i'm tired.

I done,trying to keep everyone together,new or old.

At the end of the day,it's up to you,like the other who left.

She decided,she left.

Yes,we can be handful,its difficult to keep hanging around us.

But you need to remember,that we can only give you that much hope.that much love.

remember that,when you leave,we still have each other to hold on too.

You'll have none.

we will hold to the memories,but eventually we move forward.

You will too,and thats good for you.

But i can assure you,there will be none like us,our family.

So take a pick.

Leave.

The choice is yours.

And oh,If your boyfriend is a lying piece of shit,i owe you no explanation.

Cos guess what,I'M NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU.

So stop shuffing your mood swing face in mine!

I'm done being nice.

You're not the victim.

She is.

Until you realise that,you'll still be your selfish lil self.

Who is ready to forgive and live with the liar

while

Punishing the accomplice.

So i'm done.

with you,you and you.

Xx.

you're loser bitch

2010-05-19T15:31:00.003+08:00

You know its easy to say,write,blog things about others.
But you need Balls to stand up for it.

You obviously don't have that kinda balls.
LOSER.

Pitbull.

2010-05-17T22:02:00.006+08:00

The Best Fuckin' Weekend Ever.

188 Rm,Was so worth it.

Pitbull Brought the House down,Bitches.

i wish.

2010-05-11T21:10:00.002+08:00

Everyday we ignore how truly broken this world is,and we tell ourselves 'it's all gonna be okay'.But its not gonna be okay,And once you know that,there is no Going Back.

This whole pre -trip,is stressing me out.

I wish i was stone hearted

i wish, i had options

i wish, i wasn't in this place.

i wish, i had waited.

i wish, i had more patience.

Most of all,i wish i had you<3

HAPPY MOMMAS DAY.

2010-05-11T00:43:00.003+08:00

Mom is the first word that a child says when he/she learns to speak. She remains the center of attention and respect for a child for a long time to come and it is her love and peace in her lap that clings forever to the memory of a child. Even when she is no more, her image in our hearts manages us to smile even in the... lowest period of our lives and urge us to go on♥

partayeee!

2010-05-08T00:31:00.002+08:00

My Five year Old,Duane.
Last day of school.Yippster!
Three Papers,and I've a entire Mth to partyyyyyyyyyyyyae!

May15th,pitbull.
Finally cassy and casti are joining me and reks,for Pitbull in Friggin' KL.
Time to Partyaaaaaaaaaaae!

d5000

2010-05-06T01:27:00.001+08:00

Even if it is'nt my D90,I still love it.
Thanks mum and dad,i love you<3

2010-05-03T17:46:00.004+08:00

Too busy celebrating all the 21st's this year.
Happy 21st to me and jhonny :) weeee!

Shina's farewell.

2010-04-21T23:13:00.003+08:00

So shina leaves for dubai on Monday. Her Dream of becoming an Emirates Air hostess has finally come true.She'a gonna be settled there for three years :( Of course she'll fly down occasionally, yes? :)

We met for dinner,and wished her all the luck in the world.

I'm gonna miss you truckloads shina.

Till i see you again.

xoxo.

where are you now?

2010-04-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

To the ones who cared
And who were there from the start
To the love that left
and took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear
you'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?

emo.

2010-04-16T01:34:00.003+08:00

Even when i have a bunch of people around me,i still feel alone. I still feel like,there's no one who could possibly take me in their arms and say,Everything's gonna be alright.You don't have to fake a smile,i can tell somethings killing you inside.

I've had a tough week. Friends close to the heart,turn against you. I know i may look like it doesn't matter to me,but it actually does. I'm only human,and i can only handle so much.

I was only trying to help,i wasn't trying to break anybody up. Yes,i'm the outsider. I'll start behaving like one. I'm sorry. Things will be different.

And reka,
i know it sucks being where you are right now.But i just need you to know that,it will be over soon. You'll find the happiness you deserve. This week may be tough for you too,but just know that you always have me.You're very special to me,and i'll never find another awesome friend like you.

keep in touch bitch:)

let it be

2010-04-15T21:10:00.000+08:00

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,

there will be an answer.
let it be.

fingernail.

2010-04-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

I'm in pain :(

lieing bittch.

2010-04-12T11:35:00.002+08:00

Truth is still absolute. Believe that. Even when that truth is hard and cold, and more painful than you've ever imagined. And even when truth is more cruel than any lie.

liars go to hell,thats where you'll be.

leave.

2010-04-10T13:58:00.001+08:00

People always leave.

i dunno what im feeling.

2010-04-09T22:54:00.002+08:00

I have seen the real you now. It's over. I could never love that. No one could.

i neeed a sweet escape.

Another lonely weekend awaits me.

lets go out,somebody.

call me.

823..

you know the drill yea?

xoxo.

let go

2010-04-09T00:06:00.002+08:00

People change,so we can learn to let go.

Sometimes,all you need to hear is something like that,and you think to yourself, did i only mean that much?

Pitbull

2010-04-06T21:28:00.002+08:00

They say we leave this world just the way we came into it ---- naked and alone.

So, if we do leave with nothing, What then, is a measure of a life ? Is it defined by the people we choose to love ?

Or is life simply measured by our accomplishments ?

And what if we fail ? or are never truly loved ? What then ? Can we ever measure up ?

Or will the quiet desperation of a life gone wanting, Drive us mad ?

Kl may15th! i can spell freedom.

you.

2010-04-06T00:26:00.001+08:00

I'm a better person because of you ♥

Easterrr eggs...

2010-04-04T20:32:00.006+08:00

Happy Easter :))

Hope you've been stuffed with food,like us back here.

Back to school tmr,same for the rest of the world i suppose?

Oh well,Have a good week ahead darrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr-lings.

And NO,we're not together! We're jus goofing around :))

xoxo.

stress

2010-04-02T00:50:00.002+08:00

Please god,take me away from all this drama. It adds nothing but unwanted burden.

I wanna go to a place,where i can start afresh,where no one knows my name,where i can be whoever i want to be.

Give me the independence i need.

caasssssy!

2010-03-30T22:07:00.002+08:00

Our conversations are toooo hilarious :)

NEEEEEEEDS WANTS A LIFE.

2010-03-30T21:48:00.003+08:00

One paper down,One more to go :(

My brother leaves to Bali on the second week of April,and my parents leave to Langkawi on the last week of April,along with casti's parents and the rest of the grp! My mom wants me to stay with casti! Which means i've to head to school from his place! How Far is that man!?!

Anyhooo,it will be awesome staying with casti,we do it all the time anyway! April's gonna be soooo FUN! Yipster!

I can't wait for My visit to IMH,i get to see my friends.How cool is that?!? Oh and by the way,i think i've grow that much outta the whole,lets bitch theory. I'm over it. Esp with whats going on in church and school. Same shit,difference place.

Lets all join hands and get A FUCKIN' LIFE.

Crazyy bunch.

2010-03-28T00:39:00.005+08:00

anging out with the crazy bunch,is always fun.

Our weekends are basically spend like this.

Eating,talking,Laughing,Eating again and laughing Harder!

bffffs/

2010-03-27T01:09:00.003+08:00

Exams on tuesday.

kinda,sorta prepared.

oh,and i know you've been working your butt off lately.

And you say its for me to enjoy<3

You're too gooooooood to me.

What did i do to deserve you?

And hello,SHUT THE FUCK UP.

Everyone knows you can’t choose your family but you can choose your friends. And in a

world ruled by blood lines and bank accounts, it pays to have a pal. As much as a BFF can

make you go WTF, there’s no denying we'd be a little less rich without them.

No, that’s not a tear in my eye. It’s just

allergies. Without you, I’m nothing.

Happy Bff dayy bitches<3

castiiiiii babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

2010-03-25T23:41:00.004+08:00

Poor little feller,is in pain.

He just had his MIR scan,plus some thing inserted into his arm :(

Moreover,the stupid docs didn't give him any pain killers,and i can tell from his voice

that it must be really painful,and he isn't telling his mum that its killing him.Only cos she wld worry twice as much.

Casti,you're a gem!

and one day,someone is gonna come and sweep you off your feet.

I know you feel like,there's no one,to tell you to take your meds,and comfort you.

But hell,i'll be irritating you every hour:))

So smile for me!

Getwellsoon love<3

bedrock.

2010-03-24T22:13:00.001+08:00

Oh Baby,
I Be Stuck To You,
Like Glue Baby,
Wanna Spend It All On You,
Baby,
My Room Is The G Spot,
Call Me Mr. Flintstone,
I Can Make Your Bed Rock Girl.

BROKE.

2010-03-23T11:38:00.003+08:00

i NEED MONEY.

GIVE ME YOUR MONEY!

NOW!?!

Okay i'm so broke,and i still have an unending shopping list.

and turning 21 this year, isn't helping at all!

HELP ME :(

exams soonish.

2010-03-22T22:59:00.002+08:00

Game over.

Need to study.

Exams la abang.

karen. grow up.

2010-03-22T09:46:00.003+08:00

NoNoNo.

give respect to your elders.

I'm the elderly!

GIVE RESPECT!

And you should seriously grow up.

Attention does not make you.

So stop making it worse.

i don't want to see your long long face.

seriously.

grow a pair or something.

This is life,its unfair,its ungrateful,its foolish.

Live With it.

Cos i have,we all have.

Camwhoring.

2010-03-19T20:49:00.008+08:00

Okay,the Moment has passed.School Sucks! But who cares,i'm there to study not Make bff's yea! I have enough!

Webcams are mans greatest Creation i swear!

jenny.

2010-03-17T20:46:00.001+08:00

First you say you won't,then you say you will.

You keep me hanging on,But we're not moving on.

I'm standing still...... you got me on knees......

it's killing me.

fightbitch

2010-03-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

All i want is for you to Fight for me.

IHATE/LOVEYOU.

2010-03-14T20:50:00.003+08:00

Most times, i hate myself for moving on.

Only b'cause you're the first boy,who made me feel special.You made me feel like i was the only person on earth that mattered.You'd never let me frown.

Forward.

I'm glad i moved on.

Only b'cause you've changed.You make me feel miserable,whenever i'm around you.

You made me cry

You scream shout argue stare ignore

me.

Fast Forward.

I Loved you.

I still do.

Its not the same.

Someone else found me,and he saved me from my misery.

Held my hand every step of the way.

Gave me the world.

Most of all,

Given any situation,he has never

scream shout argue stare ignore

me.

Not once,Not ever.

Yes,i'll hold on to the times we've had.

But i'm done,sleeping with a broken heart.

And to the Boy,who says i'm gonna change the world someday.

I Love you.

Forever and always <3

u suck matilda!

2010-03-10T22:15:00.002+08:00

Some bitch in class,stole 15 bucks from me! FUCK!

I hope you

Rot and Die!

school.

2010-03-08T16:33:00.003+08:00

My project datelines are killing me,i need help! I've been working so hard,i'm so proud of myself! I should most certainly continue this,until i'm done with the exams! It makes life tat much more easier. My eyes are about to shut,i hate early morning classes, even though ALL my classes are in the god damn morning! Boo! But my lecturer is AWESOME! he makes lessons so Much more interesting! Thank god for him!

On less stressful note,I'm heading for dinner/sisha with the gang green gang @ Arab. Cant wait!

Post more pictures later.

xoxo.

bye natalie.

2010-03-05T23:54:00.001+08:00

Its Sad When People You Know Become People You Knew.When You Can Walk Right Past Someone Like They Were Never A Big Part Of Your Life. How You Used To Be Able To Talk For Hours And Now You Can Barely Even Look at Them because no matter how bad someone hurts you a part of you will always love them,Even if its not the way it was before♥

fuckinbitch.

2010-03-04T14:52:00.003+08:00

Here's a word for you

Ungrateful.

shawty

2010-02-26T18:48:00.002+08:00

Shorty you got me me me me me

Shorty i got you you you you you

you know i feelin' you

i know you feelin' me

What we gonna do do do do do?

yet another oth

2010-02-25T13:14:00.002+08:00

Because it´s only when you´re tested that you truly discover who you are. And it´s only when you´re tested that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the HEARTACHE and fear of what life has.

swimming

2010-02-24T17:07:00.002+08:00

I'm so tireddddddddddd! I got home from school,completed my assignments and heading to the pool with the girls nowwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

I might just float and not swim! casti the short feller,thinks he's swimming pool is cooler,but its NOT! you better get your arseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee to tp la! its cooler!

Alright,the girls are ready,Later alligators.

school.

2010-02-23T16:34:00.002+08:00

I just sent an email regarding a job interview! i hope it'll pull through! Looking through my psychology book,is driving me up the wall! There are just so many theories that i need to remember,and boy,does our brain have a Zillion functions.

On the brighter side,studying psychology seriously blows me away,there's so much we need to know,esp about our self,and psychology sure does fill in the blanks for me!

And oh yes,i made friends at school. First days are so nerve wrecking! To a better year of education for me!

xoxo.

fuckeass.

2010-02-21T22:05:00.002+08:00

If i could i'd burn you alive,thats how much i hate you,And no, hate is not a strong enough word to express the feeling i get when i see you. Infact Hate is an Understatement. I don't see what you get,by putting others down,you're the only one who can never accept the future,forever living in the past. It disgusts me to have someone like you in my life,you've drained me emotionally and mentally,you make me feel,like i'd never be good enough.But guess what,IT DOES'NT MATTER WHAT YOU THINK! b'cause whether you like it anot,this shit is going down,and one day in the future you'll be sorry.

You'll be sorry you put me through so much.

Snitch.

hair

2010-02-19T15:56:00.003+08:00

Finally,i managed to manage my hair. A mess it was!

oth.

2010-02-17T16:47:00.000+08:00

Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, and if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back.

new year

2010-02-16T02:44:00.003+08:00

It's been a great start for 2010,of course there's been a lot of changes,and i'm glad i've have family to keep me sane.

Firstly,Casti i'm really glad you're back and that you're taking a day at a time,it's good to have you back,We've all grown so much closer this year, These changes made us realize that,through out the years,people come and go,but the people who stay through the storm are the ones who deserve the rainbows! and yes,you do deserve happier days <3

I love you forever,and always.

2009!

2010-01-02T12:27:00.004+08:00

Goodbye 2009,I'd miss you.

Hopefully 2010 wld be better.

loved.

2009-11-16T14:33:00.001+08:00

Trying to forget someone you loved,is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

deeepz/

2009-10-18T00:15:00.001+08:00

Happy Deepz'09 people :)

booo:)

2009-10-06T20:11:00.002+08:00

If this is love,then i don't know wanna know if its right or wrong.

cassy's 21st.

2009-10-06T00:15:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Cassy!
Hope you liked your 3am Surprise,and of course your 21st celebration.

Love you long time <3>

Pete.

2009-09-16T14:51:00.001+08:00

Fuckin Cunt.

U are sucha bitch,

2009-09-14T19:42:00.003+08:00

So Life has never failed to Surprise me,time and again.
I've been put in this mess,and i'm not sure if im suppose to get out of it,clean and nice,or stay to help a dear one out.

So here's the thing.
Boy loves girl.
Girl used to love A boy.
Now girl love BOYS!

As far as im concerned,That girl gotta lot of nerve.

And im not pissed with you,I'm more of disgusted with you.
I understand that sometimes,we may go outta track,Being in love at sucha young age,might have blocked you from the rest of the fishes in the sea,which you failed to notice.
And now,you might be intrested in one of the many fishes you thought you'd never fall for.
All im saying is,QUIT being a fake-ass bitch,and find the courage to atleast have a decent conversation,with the person who deserves to know.

For all his done for you,its the least you could do.
It will atleast,earn you the respect you need,Cos right now,I have ZERO respect for you.

Period.

before the worst

2009-08-26T21:48:00.001+08:00

Before the worst
Before we met
Before our hearts decided it's time to love again
Before today
Before too long
Let's try and take it back before it all went wrong.

extended!

2009-08-03T20:04:00.002+08:00

Hello Hundred!

tired!

2009-07-27T18:39:00.002+08:00

Fuckin' pissy mood.

booboo!

2009-07-21T14:59:00.003+08:00

Allister thinks he's damn hot,and he asked me to promote his face!
there you go alli-gator <3

jhonyy

2009-06-10T19:24:00.002+08:00

I will most defintely miss the family outings.

but i'll miss you more.

Have a safe trip back,iloveyou.

see you in december<3

decison

2009-05-20T17:14:00.002+08:00

There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment, i am forced to choose a direction. Will i fight to stay on the path? Will others tell me who i am or will i label myself? Will i be haunted by my choice or will i embrace my new path? Each morning i wake up,having to choose to move forward or to simply give up.

There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment, who will you be? Will you let down your defenses and find comfort in someone unexpected? Will you reach out? Will you face your greatest fears with bravery and move forward with faith? Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Think abt it?

2009-05-18T00:39:00.002+08:00

Its weird how,some people in your life,can go from being your closest friend,to a complete stranger.

Remember me as a time of day.

oth.

2009-05-05T16:28:00.003+08:00

Show me how to live.

So if you flunk a test, or have a really bad break-up…or just miss someone so much it hurts, listen to my playlist: a hundred songs to save your life.

My best friend - okay this one is so important; choose wisely, I got really lucky with mine. My best friend is funny, intelligent, creative, beautiful, and successful, and very kind. She’s also impulsive, frustrating, um complicated, childish, but I would not have her any other way. And the best part about Brooke Davis is that she always puts friends first. So if you are ever in any kind of trouble, you know who to call. I can’t think of anyone I’d rather have watching over you.

Being a kid without a mom really sucks and I know this because I’ve been there, twice. And if you’re watching this it means you’re there too, and I’m so sorry for that, but if you ever need a mom and dad fix, you have Nathan and Haley for that.

I really hope that we get to share these things together, but just in case - they’re in here. Now there’s just one thing I need from you, please take very special care of your father, because if I’m not around he’s gonna need you to take care of him just like my dad needed me. So love him. And take care of him. And be kind to him, just please do that for me.

Peyton sawyer.

One of the many reasons why i love oth<3

My 20th.

2009-05-05T01:44:00.003+08:00

The ones that made my 20th a blast!

Thanks a million guys,it really means alot (:

reks.

2009-04-29T21:48:00.002+08:00

Love?

You say you love him,but you never gave him the benefit of the doubt.You always jumped to conclusions,make hasty decisions,work on impulse,Eventually finding yourself in a whole lot of tears and heartbreak.If you think he's not the one,LEAVE.
Stop hanging on,b'cos you not only hurt yourself,but you also hurt the rest of us around you.
Yes,she slept over. SO?
She hung out with me,i asked her to stay over not him.I was bored,not him.
The only reason i bother talking abt this,is b'cos i feel bad for him.He only lied cos he was afraid,and you reacted exactly the way he thought you wld.

Congratulations,you jus took this to awhole new level.

Compared to dirty tricks you've done,what he did was so much better,it hurt so much less.
If you think what he did was digusting just cos he lied to you,think again?

You're only assuming the feeeling he ONCE,shared for her.Which btw,he NO LONGER feels.
Even she has a life of her own,she's moving on,but YOU,are still harping and harping on this one and only REASON.Its time,you either get to know her,or you can go on ruining your already shaking relationship.

Its getting old,You need to make it unbreakable with him,not show the whole world that you guys are so vunerable.

You need to sit and think.jus this one time aleast.

Today was totally uncalled for,the rude short anwers and the slamming of the phone.Simply "uncalled'' for.I'm not the one in a relationship with you,i don't deserve your anger and everything that comes with it.

sentosa

2009-04-26T15:28:00.001+08:00

B'cos its Ass fun with these few :))

new look

2009-04-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

The new kick,No its not a wig bitches :)

uncle mano.

2009-04-15T02:02:00.004+08:00

B'cos we both loved uncle mano and daddy more than life.
and
B'cos we look out for each other, just like you wanted us to.

Wemissyou everysingleday.
xoxo.

2009-04-10T15:44:00.003+08:00

They say I move too quick, but we can't let the moment pass us
Let the hourglass pass right into ashes
let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
How could a goddess ask, someone that’s only average
For advice
OMG, you listen to that bitch?
Whoa it’s me
Baby this is tragic

Cause we had it, we was magic

Say u gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
oh Cause, I don’t wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don’t wanna fall back on my face again
I’ll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call

and if it hits better make it worth the fall.

Sometimes love comes around,and it knocks you down
Just get back up,When it knocks you down.

Goodbye.

rekz and cassyy!

2009-04-07T15:39:00.002+08:00

We're back bitches!